She Wasn't Here

Idul fitri is the one moment of the year when my family and I gather in our house, when we all spend our memorable holiday
This year we still had the same activities with last year
We still had the same food, same people visited us, same places to go
But I didn't feel like it was still the same.

Because she wasn't sat on that couch watching those bollywood movies
Because she wasn't wearing her beautiful match-colored clothes with her smell I remembered so strongly
Because she wasn't walking around with a stick she held on her hand
Because she wasn't asking me to sit next to her telling all those stories I've heard thousand times
Because she wasn't here, and she won't be here anymore
She already had a better place to stay, close to her husband, in heaven.

I love you, Nek.. I Love you so much.
I just never told you that.
If only I know that last year was the last time we met, I would have hold you as long as I could until your smell lingered on me.

You are the most respected, kind, caring and loving woman I've known.
Every single person in your life loves you.
We all so sad you've left. But we know your love never leave us alone. So do our love for you.

Please keep her happy close to you, God.
She deserved Your happiness, with grand father too.

I love you so much Nenek Bunda. :')