What Matters in Dancing

There's a time for each purpose under heaven. There's a time to weep, there's a time to mourn, and there's a time to dance - Footloose (2011)

People keep asking why I love dancing. What is it so special in dance?

I remembered my friend compared dance and football. He said “apa enaknya sih nari? Misalnya kalo gue main bola, begitu berhasil ngebobolin ke gawang rasanya kan jelas tuh enaknya, puas banget. Kalo nari apa?”

Here are my statements of what matters in dancing :

1.   I can completely be myself 

2.   I don’t have to care other damn things but the dance

3.   When it’s too hard communicate  my deep feelings, dance it and all around will notice

4.   Dance shows who you are 

5.   There is no right or wrong in dance, it’s just whether it looks good or not good to people 

6.   In choreography, when I can do it right, it feels like something is accomplished  

7.   I only feel pretty when I dance

8.   Dance give me lessons, as in I often realize things while dancing

9.   The feel of togetherness is inevitable. I won't feel alone.
10. Dancing delivers the most delightful feeling

The Second Time You Get A Heartbreak

I happened to randomly find an interesting article entitled “TheSecond Time You Fall in Love” and in fact, it was an honest and fine opinion.

But most people maybe experience more than that. If there is a second time of us falling in love, then there might also be a second time of us get a heartbreak.

In response, here I am writing my version of The Second time You Get A Heartbreak.

The first time you get a heartbreak, the world seems like shutting down. No, it’s only you who shut down. You hardly have proper sleep, bad dreams are haunted, you spend your days keep on wondering all those “why” questions. Soo not easy to make you feel happy while all you ever wanted is being happy with the one that left you.

Then you finally come to a turning point. Here he/she is, your second–time-fall-in-love-guy.

All those feelings written in the article is undoubtedly true, I guess.

But then as what happens in life. There comes the problems, fights, doubts, cries. What seems to be so easy at the beginning, turns into tough times.

Then you get your second heartbreak. This time, you are no more crying and suffering all nights. You are no more pushing yourself to get the answers of those “why’ questions. You just lost.

For a while, you can’t differentiate what is truth and lies.. You don’t trust. You don’t get mad. You don’t blame anyone neither yourself. You don’t have the guts to be in any relationships. You don’t need anyone cheering you up. You fed up hearing those sad songs. You lost for a while.

What you know is, you need to get other ways of happiness for yourself before you shut down.

But life running in circles. There will be times when everything will be back okay.

The Photo Wall

saw this cute picture while random browsing. So lovellyy!

orang wall with cute instax photos. I'm so gonna have this one on my own bedroom :)

A Little About You

It's a bliss
When I had no expectation at all, and I got surprised of what universe could threw to me.
It's you.

Meeting you was the most unexpected moment
Knowing you was the most liar imagination I could have
But after all, falling in love with you become my favourite happiness
And when your smell starts lingering on me, it's when you become irresistable

So let's not make any drama
Let's not make any promises
Let's just be us
For I cherish every imperfections of us

Better than Yesterday

This November, I'm officially 22.
I am blessed with so much personal accomplishment.

I've started my new career, by joining myself as an Account Executive at Stratcom Indonesia.
Stratcom is a PR consultant , part of Indopacific Edelman, which is the company I've been imagining stepping in there since I was still a newly innocent student in UI. Here I am, enjoying my job now :)

I am no longer having bad dreams at nights.
No more past popping on my days
I live my life so much happier and lighter than before

I am still dancing. No can do, giving up the dance for career.
I'm trying to keep it balance between dance and career. It is so hard, and it's getting so much harder.
But I still remember when I had this serious talk with my best friend, Dinda Sarasannisa, through BBM.
She asked me "What would you do on your future Ga?"
I answered her spontaneously "Gue mau berkarier dan berkesenian Ndat".
This is the truth : I've never seriously thinking about what I would do on my future before. And when you asked me this, I just said what was the first thing popped on my mind. And now, I found out it's true.
I seriously do want to keep everything in balance. Thank you for inspiring me, Ndat :p

I also just had a super happy short holiday with my family.
it's been a quite a long time since we've had our family holiday just the four of us.
Dad, Mom, Kak Dim, and me had 4 days in Singapore.
This was undoubtedly the best way to refresh my mind before I let my self drowning in working-hours :p

In short, I watch myself on a great path
I'm grateful with what I am, what I do, and what I have.
I'm grateful being surrounded by great family, great friends, great work partners.
I am better than yesterday :)

Journey to FSS 2011

Jadi ceritanya, sambil mengisi waktu sebelum mulai jadi anak kantoran,
Alhamdulillah gue dapet kesempatan lagi untuk bantu DLDC dalam proses karyanya Gandrung Engtay, kali ini sebagai salah satu partisipan Festival Seni Surabaya 2011.

Dan saat gue bilang Alhamdulillah, I really meant it. Bersyukur banget.
Lots of experiences I got, lot of lessons I learned during the process, Lots of  interesting people I met, and I discovered different side of life, different culture which I was very interesting in.

Pertama, Kota Solo.
Gue kesana untuk ikut proses latihan bareng tim penari disana.
Kalo ada ungkapan "Love at First Sight", then I would say mine only for this beautiful city.
Gue cinta kondisi kotanya yang tenang dan sederhana, gue cinta warganya yang santun sederhana, gue cinta budayanya yang kental bangett, gue cinta makanannya yang bikin ngga kenal sm kata kenyang.
Gue diperkenalkan dengan para pelaku seni dari ISI Surakarta juga.
Gue juga sempet menikmati Festival Kesenian Indonesia, dimana semua pelajar seni se-Indonesia habis-habisan unjuk gigi. Too bad I didn't bring digicam. I have no picture good enough to show how great the festival was.
Solo sungguh memanjakan my curiosity of culture.
I also met my old mates from high school, Cita, Kucrit and Made. Thanks guys for showing me your City and you guys have the best taste of food :p 

at Solo Miu-Miu Resto

at Angkringan Shijack. They got the BEST Fresh Milk ever

Kedua, meeting inspiring people.
Karena di proses karya ini banyak perombakan "pemain"nya, baik di produksi dan di karyanya sendiri, ini bikin gue bisa kenal sama banyak bgtt pelaku seni hebat. Baik dari orang teater, orang musik, tari, musik, tata panggung, semuanya. Baik pelaku seni tanpa ikut sekolah formal sampai ke rektor ISI dari berbagai daerah.
Selama nonton FKI di Solo, gue ketemu sama orang-orang yang kayanya jalan kaki aja udah jadi seni.
Selama proses latihan, gue ketemu pemusik2 yang hebat bgt dari berbagai daerah. Mereka ngga bicara pake bahasa manusia normal, mereka bicara pake bahasa musik.
Selama proses latihan, gue ikut terlibat dengan penari-penari yang kayaknya badannya udah jodoh bgt sama musik apapun sampai mau gerakin apa aja jadi indah bgt.
Bersyukur banget ngabisin waktu gue jauh dari bisingnya Jakarta, nikmatin hidup dengan berkesenian seperti mereka ternyata sungguh pilihan yang menggoda :D

Ketiga, discovering new family
Proses yang cukup cepet ini bikin kita mau ngga mau habisin hampir tiap hari bareng-bareng untuk maksimalin waktu yang kita punya.
Dari Jakarta-Solo-Surabaya-Solo-Surabyaya-Jakarta lagi. Semuanya bareng2.
Makan Bareng, tidur bareng, nyiapin kostum bareng, angkut tas properti bareng2, tampil bareng2, nervous bareng2, sakitpun bareng2 :p

Being together every minute makes me love them, makes me miss them.
and yes, I miss them all already :')

GR at Cakdurhasim, Taman Budaya Surabaya

at Wisma Seni

Dan dari semua kerja keras, alhamdulillah penampilan akhirnya pun memuaskan.
No other way to spend my holiday greater than this journey..

Sulak

Ending Scene Gandrung Engtay

Photo taken by Cita From "Not a Double nor Triple Date" album, Ka Naya and Mas Fabianus from "Gandrung Engtay Surabaya" Album on Facebook

Flowers Never Fail?

Yang ulang taun, yang mau nembak, yang ngerayain anniversary, yang ngasih selamat atas prestasi, yang minta maaf.. semuanya bisa dilakuin dengan cara kasih bunga.
Is that true that "flowers never fail"?

Buat para lelaki yg doyan unyuk2 dengan memberikan bunga untuk temennya, gebetannya, pacarnya, istrinya, adeknya, ibunya, atau neneknya..
I'd lake to share you guys advice, based only on my own experiences, about thing you need to make sure before giving your beloved ones some flowers..

Ternyata, gue baru menyadari, what excites me the most is the fragrance.

It doesn't really matter what flower it is, what color it is, or how many flowers there are. Because when the flower gives good good good smell , well then your effort works!

Gue ga tau, gue doang atau emang rata-rata cewek begitu dikasih bunga, diam-diam akan menciumi wanginya. Tapi yang pasti, siapa sih yang ngga seneng bunga pemberiannya disimpen di kamaarr.. so when your beloved ones wake up in the morning she can smell a good good and becalming fragrance comes out from your flower? ;)

Soo.. Don't just buy any random flowers for your beloved ones. Kindly make sure the fragrance works out! :)