Blast from the Past

These past few weeks, I was like living in a roller coaster.
I get up so high and fell down over and over again
I learned another lesson afterward
Ever heard people talking about missing something?

I found out that missing something doesn't always mean wanting the thing back again.

When people tell they miss something in their life, that doesn't always mean they want to get the thing back.
Maybe it's just because they like the feeling, the situation when they had the thing
Maybe it's just because they haven't felt like when they had the thing yet
Maybe it's just because the thing gave them sort of valuable experiences
Maybe it's just because the thing gave them precious moments..

But then, they'll realized some more things that make them don't want to get back

And when this happened, like happened to me.
We could only thank the past  for what they gave us.
And walk strongly.

Like an old saying :

Past is a nice place to visit, but not a place to stay.

So, thank you :)

As Much Love As Old Couples

" Grow old with me! The best is yet to be. The last of life, for which the first is made.  " -Robert Browning

I just watched Live to Dance before I wrote this.
There was a very old couple became the contestant.



Dalam sekejap gue langsung merasa sirik.
It was so nice seeing them dancing energetically when they are 68 years old already

Basically, I loooveeee old couples.
I love seeing so much love they share 
I love seeing old couples doing activities together, jogging, singing, laughing,or walking around the park (or mall, since Jakarta only have malls)
Dan setiap gue liat mereka gue langsung mikir "gue mau kaya mereka"
Tua dan mesra terus sama partnernya, ga peduli udah jadi se kakek-nenek apa gue. Amin, hehehehe.

This contradicts with the opinion of my friend
My friend once said to me "As time flies, love ends. No matter how great your marriage would be, you'll lose it. That's what children are for : to keep your marriage"
Mungkin ada benernya juga, cerai sana-sini buktinya.
But then, begitu gue liat video ini entah kenapa gue ngerasa pendapat itu kalau bisa dilupain aja.
Why think negative when the possitve does exist, right?

Maybe when couples grow older the love doesn't really end, they just find another way to love each other

lovely old couple

favourite couple : Mom and Dad

"They gave each other a smile with a future in it." ~ Ring Lardner

Inspirasi Buat Eternity

Bermaksud meneruskan email dari temen gue (makasih Mba Galuh :) )
I wanna share one simple story, about what people considered as small thing could mean bigger than you think it is, about how a small thing for people could turns into big inspiration for others.

It started from last week. Ada pentas kecil-kecilan di tempat gue belajar nari, Padepokan DLDC. Ada beberapa performance, mulai dari beberapa orang jepang yang belajar nari Jawa (you guys should've seen how cute they are), performance dari sanggar kelas anak-anak kecilnya yang semuanya pinter nari, nyanyi, sampe main teater, dan kelas yang udah gedenya tapi baru belajar nari (including me).

But I'm not gonna talking about myself. I'm talking about this performance from amazing kids at Sanggar Aruni. Jadi performance mereka kemudian direkam terus dirangkum dalam video berdurasi 7 menit terus di upload ke Facebook. Video itu terus nyebar, sampe ke tangan seorang dokter. Si dokter ini terus ngasih liat videonya ke salah satu pasiennya yang masih anak kecil, pengidap kanker leukimia dan tulang belakang.

Anak kecil ini namanya Eternity. Para dokter udah menduga usianya ngga lebih dari tiga bulan lagi. Hidupnya udah apatis banget, udah ngga punya semangat hidup. Tapi begitu dia liat video tarian itu, motivasinya mulai tumbuh lagi. Dia suka banget sama tariannya, sama musiknya, dia pengen jadi seperti temen - temennya di video itu. Dia pengen bisa nari kaya temen -temennya  di video itu.

Si dokter pun terus bikin video itu jadi salah satu terapi penyembuhan.
Hebat banget, cuma sekedar sekumpulan anak-anak kecil melenggang kiri kanan diiringin musik riang, bisa jadi motivasi hidup buat seorang anak, bahkan anak yang sebelumnya ngga pernah dikenal.

We never know what we did could mean for others.
We never know where inspiration and motivation comes from. But things we did wholeheartedly maybe could be one of them. I really wish I could do things like that.. Inspiring , motivating others.

"Bunda makaseh banya for video, nity ba janji mo rajin ba minum obat, mo
denga-dengaran pa pa dokter, mo banyabanya berdoa, supaya mo dapa manari,
salam for semua dan tamang bunda GBU" (Bunda, terima kasih banyak untuk
vidonya, nity berjanji akan rajin minum obat, rajin taat saran dokter, akan
minum obat, supaya bisa menari, salam untuk semua dan temannya bunda -
yanusa - god bless you)".

- isi sms dari Eternity -

  

Gue ikut berdoa buat kesembuhan si kecil Eternity.. Berdoa yang terbaik buat Eternity.

Super 21

I'm officially 21 years old since November 23, 2010

As usual, we always have something to share on our birthday
I wanna share mine too.
I called my birthday as the unpredictable day

Why unpredictable? because everything happened on my birthday was beyond my prediction

I started the day by a midnight surprise from a friend
Unpredictable, karena secara saya sedang tidak berpacar jadi tidak mengharap siapapun di tengah malem.
Ternyata ada temen gue yg mau aja dateng bawa kue plus ngasih hadiah.
Unpredictable karena hadiah yang dikasih luar biasa : lukisan muka saya

semoga saya bisa segemuk ini amin :p

Dan bulan lalu gue abis jalan2 sama temen2 gue ke Blok M, trus ngeliat abang2 tukang pelukis emperan rasanya pengen bgt dilukis. Alhamdulillah tercapai juga :)

After that, everything was going normally
Got so many birthday greetings and wishes from friends, had a breakfast and chit chat with my parents, then I went to campus in a super good mood to finish my group assignment.
Unpredictable, karena di tengah - tengah "asik curhat" gue sm temen gue
Jeng Jeng, di belakang gue ramailah temen2 kampus yang imut - imut itu singing happy birtday and brought a special cake. Why special? becaus it was frozen, I couldn't even slice the cake, ahhaha.
Bahkan temen gue yg berbadan besar seperti bakpau motong kuenya sampe keringetan (hai Bobi, thanks anyway! :D)

kibo, rana, bobi, ria, ayu, ichy, resty, gue, nda, indi, icha, dan jaja yg foto

the supercake

Seharian ultah gue sebenernya cuma di kampus aja kumpul sama temen - temen, dan malemnya sekedar makan bebek di daerah Tebet. But I really did enjoy my day.
Hanging out with some friends so I didn't have to be alone on my day.

I felt unpredictably happy, gue termasuk orang yang justru sangat tersentuh sama hal - hal kecil seperti :

• Birthday greetings dari banyak orang, bikin gue ngerasa gue diingat sama temen - temen gue, apalagi ucapan dari temen - temen yg ngga gue sangka bakal notice ulang tahun gue (walaupun gue tau jaman sekarang tinggal buka twitter / facebook pasti tau siapa aja yg ulang taun di hari itu). Actually, I planned to put some captures of the greetings here.. tapi gue putuskan agaknya terkesan dangdut :p

• Status BBM temen - temen gue yg diganti jadi "happy birthday ega".. bahkan dari temen - temen yang sebenernya jg ngga deket - deket amat atau malah hanya kenal..

• Dapet cemilan kampung "kuping gajah" dari temen2 gue *kecup ichy&dinda*

Hal - hal kecil kaya gitulah yg bikin super good mood saya awet seharian.
I truly deeply heartily appreciate it :)

I came home at late night with a smile.
I discovered something clise yet true on that day :
Boyfriends come and go, but best friends don't know how to go :)
Thank you for the gifts, thank you for the joy, thank you for the greetings, and thank you for making me unpredictably happy :)

Serendipity

Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.- Lawrence Block

Have you ever watched this movie called Serendipity?  Staring John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale, this movie made in 2001. It was not so popular in Indonesia but was one of the best romance movie I've known after Love Actually, He's Just Not that Into You, and A Walk to Remember.

I write about this movie, because it tells you what signs, faith, destiny could give you. The opportunities, possibilities that can happen or not happen in your life. As it written in my blog's line, it shows you when expectation meets reality.

Quoted from imdb.com ,this is the storyline:

Jonathan Trager and Sara Thomas met while shopping for gloves in New York. Though buying for their respective lovers, the magic was right and a night of Christmas shopping turned into romance. Jon wanted to explore things further but Sara wasn't sure their love was meant to be. They decided to test fate by splitting up and seeing if destiny brought them back together... Many years later, having lost each other that night, both are engaged to be married. Still, neither can shake the need to give fate one last chance to reunite them. Jon enlists the help of his best man to track down the girl he can't forget starting at the store where they met. Sara asks her new age musician fiance for a break before the wedding and, with her best friend in tow, flies from California to New York hoping destiny will bring her soulmate back. Near-misses and classic Shakespearean confusion bring the two close to meeting a number of times but fate will have the final word on whether it was meant to be.

Jonathan: This is the ultimate blend to drink. How'd you find this place?
Sara: I first came in because of the name: Serendipity. It's one of my favorite words.
Jonathan: It is? Why?
Sara: It's such a nice sounding word for what it means: a fortunate accident

The movie begins with Jonathan and Sara accidentally meet in a store and share for a pair of gloves they bought on that store. That night they had a very good time, but when Jonathan asks for Sara's number, she refused. So, she write her number on a book and sell it to a random store, and Jonathan write her number on a dollar bill and spend the bill randomly. Sara believes that if they meant to meet each other again, they'll find out theirselves. Jonathan knows nothing about this girl. He only knows that her name is Sara, and he falls for this interesting girl.

Jonathan: If fate didn't want us to be together, then why did we meet tonight? Got you!
Sara: I don't know, it's not an exact science. It's a feeling.
Jonathan: What if you're wrong? Huh? What if it's all in our hands and you just walk away? No names, no phone numbers, what do you think's gonna happen? Do you think good ol' fate is gonna deliver my information to your doorstep?
Sara: You know, that's the best idea you've had all night.

Sara: Here you go. Write your name and number down.
Jonathan: On this $5 bill?
Sara: Yeah, just do it.
Jonathan: You are a strange and interesting woman

I love the characters in this Movie.

Sara, with her belief in fate. When she already forgot about this Jonathan guy she met in a store and finally engaged with the man she loves, some signs that reminds her about Jonathan just keep coming back to her. Though, she doesn't just sit and wait for the time to come and tell her who will be her future man. She makes some efforts, she acts by the following signs. She flied from California to NY to meet Jonathan until she finally find out that Jonathan could have been getting married.

Sarah: Just have faith

Jonathan: Faith In what?

Sarah: Destiny 

Jonathan: My name is Johnathan, doesn't that make you want to tell me something?

Sarah: Yes, It does. Merry Christmas Johnathan.

Sarah: I'm the man Eve. Staring into the sky, thinking. Not about my fiancee, but about some mystery guy I met a million and a half hours ago. It was only a moment, a fragment really. But it was like, in that moment, we were supposed to be together. That's why I'm here Eve, that's why I'm going to let destiny take me where it wants to. Because when all of this is over, at least I'll never have to think about him again. Let's just hope he's some bald fascist who picks his nose and wipes it under the car seat."

Jonathan, with his realistic way of thinking. He doesn't really buy about such things like destiny, until he meet Sara. One night he found his glove he bought with Sara,he decided that it was a sign to get her back again. He keep looking for other signs, he come to every places related to Sara like the store where they bought gloves, her favorite restaurant, an ice skating park, etc. But then when he just give up searching for sign that is not exist, on the night before his wedding, his fiance give him an old book, exactly the same book where Sara write her number on.

Dean: What's wrong? You all right?
Jonathan: Her name's Sara Thomas.
[ Jonathan hands Dean the book]
Dean: How?
Jonathan: Halley gave it to me as a wedding present.

The moral of the story is:

You know the old saying "Kalau jodoh ngga akan kemana",

For me it's more than that. We don't just find our future partner in a blink of an eye.

There would be pebbles that interferes, survival things, there would be ups and downs until you finally get the happy ending. So, for me.. "Kalau jodoh emang suka dipersulit"

And my saying is not only in the context of love.

It could happen in your career, your hobbies, anything you're reaching to is not necessarily be the best for you.

That's why I believe such things like sign, destiny does exist.

That is what happen when expectation meets reality.

But it would be meaningless if you don't do anything.

When love feels like magic, it's called Destiny. When destiny has a sense of humor, It's called Serendipity

Here it is, watch the Trailer ! :)

I Love Indonesia, Whatever Happens

Today, October 26, 2010
Is obviously not a good day for my Indonesia.

Dimana - mana berita bencana. Bukannya makin membaik, justru bertambah terus

• Gempa Tsunami 7,2 SR di Mentawai, Sumatera Barat. Ratusan korban meninggal, ratusan juga hilang. :(
• Gunung Merapi meletus. Hujan abu ngga ada abisnya. Ribuan warga harus mengungsi, belum lagi korban yang luka bakar :(
• Di Jakarta sendiri, ujan juga ngga ada abisnya. Banjir dimana - mana. Kecelakaan lalu lintas dimana - mana. Macet makin kacau, bahkan kalau cuma dari semanggi ke kuningan aja bisa sampe ngabisin waktu 4 jam di perjalanan.. Namanya udah lumpuh total. :(

Beneran ngeri banget rasanya baca/denger/nonton  liputan berita dimana - mana korban semua.
Gue bukan orang yang bisa cari - cari kesalahan pihak manapun lah itu.
Bukan saatnya marah - marah, mencak - mencak, ngeluh ini itu.
Sekarang lebih baik bantu sebisa mungkin. Bantu doa, alahmdulillah kalau bisa bantu matreri.

Gue disini mengirimkan doa setulus - tulusnya buat semua korban beserta keluarganya.
Semoga keadaan ga perlu makin parah, semoga cepet kembali pulih.
Semoga gue juga bisa dikasih kesempatan buat bantu, dalam bentuk apapun itu.

Ini negara milik semua warganya, bukan milik pemerintah aja.
Jadi kalau ada musibah, ngga bisa nyalahin satu pihak aja.
Cukuplah sikap cuek sama lingkungan sekitar. Harus berubah
for I love Indonesia, whatever happens..

Limit

Bude once said to me:
"cara orang menari itu mereflekskan bagaimana dirinya, bagaimana sikapnya dalam hidup"
I happened to find out something last friday, after I attended my dance rehearsal at DLDC.

So, last friday we practiced our  Javanese traditional dance.
And I kept doing the same mistakes everytime I practiced this Javanese dance.
I didn't open up my bodies, I limit my moves
I limit my hands, my hip, my feet, and all.
It's hard to loosen up yourself when you recognize that you are still in effort to make it as your "comfort zone".
Err, or maybe it's just me..
After all, I find out that I limit myself as much as I limit my moves in dancing.

But still, the hardest part is to change.